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Thursday, August 28, 2008

COOKIES!

yay!!!! our cookies!! made by lesbo shiwei, joan dear and i!!! (: shiwei! see! we did a good job, didnt we?!

tiring day. once again, i woke up at 3+ , 5+ and den at 7. wth. i want my proper slp!! after that started to read my book, and raining heavily outside. mood totally spoilt sia. cos supposed to go out. lucky it was only drizzling after that. stepped out of the hse. the bus i boarded was empty. zzz. den i saw the driver smiling. i stunned. den i saw she mouth moving. so i think she talking on the phone bax. met shiwei and joan at westmall. too early. library wasnt open. walked all ard. for one hour plus. wakao. den went to library to find out recipe book. (: joan got her mr midnight. lunched at food court and back to my house. cookie time!! very fun.LOL. shiwei like some sua gu. of cos, grandma chap-ped in la. giving all her comment and stuff. in the end. we completed everything! *applause* came into room to play icytower. haha. den chat on msn with grace and chee chye. sent joan to the bus stop, a goodbye hug and home for dinner. (: happy and contented with life.

totally affected? dont know too.i wanna know it myself too...

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wondering what are you thinking actually makes me fails to sleep...

lol. all those photos with me in them.

frankenstein! handsome? fucking cool right?! =x

i have been waking up at 7am this few morning. am i mad or something? lol. because i normally wake up after 8 hours of sleep only. but this few nights, no matter how late i slp, i still wake up at 7am. =.= suay siao. cant get back to sleep also. but is home very quiet la. so nvm. (: gonna do some baking later in the day. with shiwei and joan i thiink.

no rejection doesnt means acceptance. doesnt this make sense? lol. she said she felt no sense of rejection. but it doesnt means that it will definately be acceptance. why take the risk! no way. i rather things remain this way.

i asked 2 guys and 2 gals yesterday: do u really smile or laugh at ur laptop when u are typing things like 'lol', 'haha', 'hehe'. lol. the guys say only sometimes, the gals REALISED they do. lol. therefore, i conclude that i am not a weirdo like yc said so. hahas. why do we laugh? is not because we typed it i think. according to my logic. we laugh, before we type. which means the we dont type for the sake of typing. but because we are smiling or laughing. (: and i really mean it.

you are a noob!!! sometimes i really wonder what you are thinking. i lost my sleep.

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Wednesday, August 27, 2008

130th post!

i dont know if i am happy or not. i finally met those people again yesterday. had a fun day. (: met at yc's house and went to take 106 to douby ghaut. dao kia was late. so he went straight to douby ghuat. went to the arcade 1st. i dont know what i was thinking. probably letting out all the anger i've been keeping to myself. the basketball machine seriously rock. too bad the hammering machine wasnt working. or the guys will see the violent side of me. lol. after that went to the arcade at plaza sing. lunch! we split into 2 groups. =.= shiwei, me, joan, dao kia at mahattan fish market, yc and leslie at kfc. all of us were eating fish and chip... the only difference was, i didnt manage to finish my food. lol. dao kia finished the fish for me, yc was eating the fries. after that we walked all the way to ngee ann city just to find out that the library there is gone. wth. they no money to pay rental expense ah. zzz. den sat there to stone for a while before proceeding to cine to watch death race. wah, gross. but when that woman die, wahaha. i was laughing like nobody business. lol. and shiwei was scolding the f word. lol. she said it is f-ucking cool . LOL. which caused me to laugh a lot even after the whole movie. as usual, after movie= headache. because of all the blasting sound system. came out... walked to mrt station. by then, the emo feeling is back. because the day had come to an end. but no one actually realised. i cant bear to say goodbye. alighted at queenstown with leslie, joan and shiwei to walk to the library. after that shiwei left with leslie and joan with me. started to feel tired once i got onto the bus. tried sleeping, but of course, i failed to. came home to bathe and have my dinner. and i heard, grandma actually didnt cooked my share. KAO! it was because mum came home late and i ended up eating her portion. heck her. she hate eating at home anyway. will never learn to appreciate. hopeless. lying on my bed, i almost died there. my weak body dont even felt like moving. so i read my book and make myself to go to sleep. i had been using my mp3 this few nights to make myself fall asleep. sigh. my brain is so going to die. i seriously hope i dont die young.

this friday -- E4/1'07, NTSS teachers!!
2 sept -- TA07's gals!- audrey, elisse, nicolette, evelyn, jie. anymore? did i miss out anyone?

to my superb friends: please please please, organise another outting! a proper one. lol.
to e4/1'07: class bbq want???

you gave me someone to love, someone to hold.

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Monday, August 25, 2008

心里的创伤，永远都好不了了。

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i hate the life i am in now

let me start brand new.
i dont want to live this way.

went to swim just now. just to vent my anger. hahas. but i met my neighbour and had a chat with him. dao kia! u watch out. indirectly keep asking me to go away right. uh huh. be careful i smack u ah. my neighbour says he gonna bring me to clubbing next year when i turn 18. haha!! (: he so nice. he say must be good gal. lol. ask me to study hard, dont find bf.

going out tml!!!! like, finally. lol. cant wait..

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Saturday, August 23, 2008

JOAN, DAO KIA, YEW CHOONG, SHIWEI, LESLIE! I MISS ALL OF YOU!

i wasted one whole day at home yesterday. dammit. i hate it. i used to love staying at home, to slack. but yesterday, i felt useless. i mean, staying at home, doing nothing, watching video. is a waste of time. yea, i finally got time to watch lan qiu huo. but then. it took me one whole day to finish the 4 damn episodes. i was making myself full with water. so that i wont eat a lot during meals. gonna go thinner. or a least lower my weight. i am getting fatter after eating too much during the study break.. everyday spending so much on food. guilty sia. lol. anyway, i shall spend more time reading books books and more books. (: make full use of my time.

i wish i have a boyfriend like hers.

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Friday, August 22, 2008

(: a brand new start

as promised, i'll do the quiz on jane's blog first.

"My Gender and 7 Things I Want in A Partner"
Gender: F
1. know what i am thinking. (most important)
2. filial
3. must be able to make me laugh. even when i am emo-ing (which is quite often)
4. got 安全感
5. dont expect me to everyday 'report' my life
6. understands that family and studies still comes before him
7. be romantic without the use of money. (cos i hate guys spending money on me)

7 ppl i tag to do this:
1. joan
2. xuanyi
3. jiejie
4. janice
5. jiong hong
6. elisse
7. audrey

i.. was freaking emo ytd. of cos, i didnt cry. i almost did tho. after i walked out of the examination hall. forget about the paper. after the paper.. uh huh. another sian case. but nvm. in order to to make anyone's life difficult, joan and i went off ourselves. went to plaza singapura.. went to go to the arcade there. in the end we went to the one at the mrt station. fun sia. but very tiring. lol. very long didnt play arcade le. den we walked to far east shopping to eat. shark fin. and bird nest. less den $10 per person. den we walked all ard. ignoring our direction. walk walk walk. we even tried going online to find ppl. but they werent online. anyway, we blogged.( the previous post) her smile was a lil, mian qiang.

today, life seems to be very weird. i miss those days we meet in sch, with the guys, with shiwei, with joan. i wanna study with them again. i want to chat with them, laugh with them. i dont want to stay at home like that. i dont want!! we will meet again wont we? ): i suddenly feel very emo...

and i realise, i love to day-dream. DREAMING OF THE IMPOSSIBLE. shiwei and joan shd understand la hor.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GAN SUJIA!!! <3>

<3,rotting at home>

Thursday, August 21, 2008

LESLIE!!!! (: WE <3 U TOO MUCH LA.

LESLIE! READ TILL THE END. START FROM THE TOP. OR ELSE YOU ARE A STUPID BIG FAT FLY WHO WILL HAVE NO GIRLFRIEND!

hi, finally, exam is over... (: today................................................................................ sucks. at least till 4pm. especally when we were beating crockroaches/ flies/ rats/ moles. they are the dumbass. lol. they are killed by us. the glass almost broke. cos of JOAN TEO SHI HUI! she is super violent i tell all of u. lol. maybe cos of LESLIE. (: JOAN say she feels that he looks more like a fly. cos he is dark. hehes. 2nd up was the drum. but another stupid machine, cheat my money. and LESLIE's face was the drum we were hitting. lol. 3rd one was one of the dancing machine. this time, LESLIE's face was under our feet. stomping on him was real fun. 4th up, para para. HIS FACE was floating ard the sensors. so we swing our hands all ard the sensors. last! basketball machine, we imagine that LESLIE is the ball. even when they ball didnt went in the net, we were still hyper happy cos his head still hit something.

OVERALL, LESLIE IS THE STAR OF THE DAY IN THE ARCADE! (:
P.S LESLIE ARENT YOU HAPPY TO SEE THAT POST .. NICE RECOMMENDATION FROM JOAN BA .. YOU HAD WALKED INTO A TRAP OF JOAN AND WANTING .. :x

Monday, August 18, 2008

i hate you. i seriously do. i hope i dont have to use that word on you.

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Monday, August 11, 2008

retards

retarded. lol

lovey-dovey .. LOL. studying laa.

our food for today's picnic. i love yakult! LOL.

as usual. studied with joan darling today. her gan qing gu shi super funny. LOL. shhh. secret. lol. YAY!! i am going to see lesbo tml!!! finally. after soooo long. since... our movie meeting? lol. dont know la. i only know i miss her man. gonna study from 8 - 6. weee!! that will be so fun man.LOL. i am going mad!! and u!! stop teasing me le hor.lol. omg. make me so stress. okay. hope i can upload photos with lesbo in them tml. hahas! I SAW HER ON TV JUST NOW!! (: she looksssssss................................. retarded. cos got her teng teng. LOL. and as usual, he is so freaking quiet. mama says he doesnt look nicer, at least not nicer den lzx. =x. *shiwei is gonna bash me up!!! siam ah!* lol. but i agree with my mum. wahahah.

my hp sucks. lol. the buttons are kind of... insensetive now. press le also dont respond de. kns. anyway, yes. (:

i love myself!!

Sunday, August 10, 2008

lol. my full of bruises legs. and they are kinda gone now. (:

lol. after swim. that's my dad's shirt!

me! ytd, in the meeting room alone.

joan darling and i. (: *dont know why, that day take de photos all kinda blur. =x*

haha. had a great time ytd. saw korkor on tv also. had a filling dinner. had a nice meeting room to study. had a chance to chat with jason only, had to sms dao kia.

if u realy thinks that it's my fault, fine. cos i am NOT going to apologise. too bad. seriously, just let it be.

exam is coming in one week time. i am feeling the stress. sorry ppl, hahas. i make u all study. i have no choice, cos no one suppose to become cross level. hahas. okay. i will update more next time. i dont know why i am not in the mood to do anything. not even to update. sigh.

lesbo!! i wanna talk to uuuuuuuuuuu. ): tell me more about him. hahas.

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Friday, August 8, 2008

wth la chan wan ting!

slap me. seriously. i am going mad.

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Wednesday, August 6, 2008

my face is red, with sun burn and pain.

can see the super obvious different shade? my legs also like that.

okay. life saving test 1, 2 n 3 is over. but i am not happy. i am super emo, i hate it. i wanna cry, my tears are dry. i dont know what i wanna say.

(: thank you grace and shu qing for coming to support me.
(: thank you jane for encouraging me.
(: thank you shiwei for letting me vent my anger.
(: thank you joan for trusting me during the test.
(: thank you swimming coach for the fun and time you spend on us.
(: thank you, thank you, thank you... no one to thank le.

): my face is pain.
): the examiner is no good.
): if i dont continue taking life saving test, i cannot see swimming coach anymore.
): i dont want to come home.
): i dont want to face the adults at home.
): i want to go thinner.
): i want to dream of luo zhi xiang again.
): i want a shoulder to cry on.

okay. that's life. i am so tired.

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Tuesday, August 5, 2008

120th post!

i shall keep myself happy. i really must. let me share a good news with everyone : i am going to take my life saving basic 1, 2 n 3 test tml! nervous, but i seriously hope i can pass. thinking about the cert is like omg!! lol. i told him about it too. i hope he saw it! ):

fake smile is hanging on my face. i hate this family.

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Monday, August 4, 2008

jiejie and i. (:

sunday: cousin came in noon. hahas. and left around 3+ i think. lol. had fun chatting with her. she is so funny. future lawyer. (: after that bathe and went to wcp to meet the gals. i go there find them, lol. but! mid way have to sing the national anthem and den say the singapore pledge.lol. and i so long didnt sing le! omg. i love singapore.lol. after that jiu went home le lo.

today: at home. study study, video video, chat chat. den went to sch at 515. lol. had fun again today. seriously. dont want to elaborate. lol. anyway, i really laugh like dont know how much. lol. reach home at ard 905. (: coach, swimming mates! i love all of u! LOL.

night!!! i am gonna slp!!!(:

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Saturday, August 2, 2008

my wonderful classmates/friends in our last infa workshop. take care you people. i'll miss all of u! (: i shall name out everyone. okay. nvm. i ddecided not to. cos i dont know how to spell some name. like, the guy beside pan. =x

ITB group! and we're done with PBL!!! thank you all of you. u girls were fun. once again, a all gals group! hahas. the piggy-est group. (: well done!!!

i dont know i know i dont know i know i dont know i know i dont know i know i dont know i know i dont know. LOL. ok. i dont know what i dont know that's y i cant know what i dont know! (:

went for a swim at SPGG with younger bro and others.zzz. the pool too shallow. my feet hit the ground, super pain. den play volleyball. lol. bathe, pick grandma from her friend hse and home. tried studying in the noon. QUITE unsuccessful cos i was so distracted by video online. and i only manage to like, fill in 8 entries for infa. lol. nvm. tml. anyway it is studying break le. please!! i must study, i need to study, i will study. cos i dont want to treat chee chye. =.= lol. yea, our bet.

lol. this is my tortoise collection. i love all of them. (: bot by friends, korkor, myself, relatives and parents! total number: 20. gonna get more.. but will get scolded. hehes. buy le den say.lol.

yea, that's me. in the middle of a road. hahas. fun.

ok. enough of updating.LOL. i love reading my book. can laugh like shit. bye!

Friday, August 1, 2008

this is for her only. thank you. for assuring me to be myself. but, apology is still needed because it happened cos of me too. anyway, u were real forgiving. thank you.

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I'm sorry.

someone taught me something today: different people have different perspective.

i agree. but i was too dumb to understand that since young i suppose. because i am not sensetive enough, not caring enough, not patient enough, not observant enough. i am sorry. i didnt though so much before speaking, and i think i kind of offended you. is it? i cant do anything, except to say sorry. i dont dare to tell u face to face, because i know you dont wish to talk to me. i really hope to understand you better. i hope you give me the chance, because i wanna treasure our friendship. if u are here to see, all i want to say is: SORRY. really sorry.

zzz. i slapped grace just now. cos there was a mosquitoe on her face. there really IS! =x met meiyi,jonathan and sherman coincidentally at the bus stop and managed to get his number and msn. had fun photo taking session before leaving sch. and i came home late. shit. but i managed to help out a bit. ): hope tml will be a better day.i really do hope so.

dao kia! i make sure there is a shoe print on ur shirt next time. how dare u chase me away. argh!

jie! sorry, make u wait for evelyn so long downstair. but u should come up to take photo with ur mei mei!! ):

to all friends: if i ever make u angry, please, tell me! k? let me feel the guilt in myself.

lastly! ELISSE! SORRY.

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