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hello, chanwanting♥ here. 22yo this year. a gal who is trying hard to change herself to get a better life..


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Monday, August 31, 2009

there are things you dont know.
there are things you no need to know.
there are things i want you to know.
yet those things are what you are not suppose to know.

there are things you wont want to know.
there are things you rather you dont know.
yet those are things you ought to know.

i hope to face you one day.
but i know i cant.
one of my wish, to know the truth,
which i dont wanna know.

i'll breakdown, i'll cry,
but i'm eager to know.

lol. recently i was thinking of this guy.
something impossible.
something ridiculous.
something nonsensical.
something irrational.

but what to do?!
not like i can control it.
there are people out there,
trying to help me, console me, stop me from thinking.

thanks. but it's not helping much.
cos the fault is on myself.
too much blame, too much guilty feeling,
too much self conciousness.

i cant lie to myself anymore, cos i know i still care.
i chose to look from the other way.
i let go, chasing no more for the answer that i want.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

okay. photos are up. not a lot tho. but all this are suppose to be up i guess. hahas. okay, let me trace back.....

this photo was taken... on the day of IRAS trip. which was seriously quite some time ago...


same. i think very long ago to. at vivo with my darlings, joan and nicolette. but nic went hunting for something. lol. nice photo right? darling dam chio. lol. =D


one day while walking home from school.... in courts' toilet...


mentoring-mates. lol. isabel =D the one year 2 with me, other than the seniors.


isabel + qinghui + me. cute year 1. =D


get to meet eric while he pop by singapore before going back to indo:

jane/shiwei


jane;shiwei;me


eric's sis; anthony; eric


attended a church wedding. and i must say, i really love it.



this meal was on the sat, after cost paper. dad brot joan and i out.

my drink. =D stella artois.


beer + fresh apple juice + my dad at the back =x


fish and chips; pork sausage



finally, papers ended and off to arcade. lol. there was this married couple playing sweetland. scary. 2 big bags. so after they see the way we played, they decided to give us some. lol. no, not some, is a lot.. looking from this pic dont look like there is a lot right? but it actually fills up a big container.


see!




actually a lot were eaten and taken out already. because some are in our stomach, and also joan's hse container.
woke up this morning. lie down on my bed, sms-ing, thinking, saddening.
<3

Friday, August 28, 2009

wanted to blog. but blogger dont let me upload photo.. so shall do it another time. anyway, exam is over. tho today's paper wasnt good. driving lesson starting soon.. stress.

mahjong
picnic
swimming
badminton
baking
driving
many many many more. =D
*DIET- most important*

<3

Saturday, August 8, 2009

小丑鱼 - 罗志祥

我在你身边游来游去我不敢出声看着他亲吻你
眼不能闭看你的唇印还在那里你隔着玻璃所以听不见我在叹息
说不出口的秘密永远活在小小的世界里
仅存一点稀薄的氧气是否够我继续撑下去
这件脱不下来的外衣还是你喜欢的橘我不能确定
是否你曾经注意我的眼泪流在透明的水里

lady lady one more try 再试着了解我的爱
发不出声音的感慨选择作朋友的无奈
lady lady one more try 提醒我何时该走开
只要你偶尔想起来我就住在那片海

等我转过身看你眼神才知道自己想得太过天真伤得太深
爱来的时候划破沉闷我早该知道你终究不是我该爱的人
黑暗中两眼无神夜里不再为我开盏灯
始终不敢将爱说出口当然没有资格去竞争
恋爱和失恋同时发生怪自己枉费青春
我输得彻底把脸深埋在水里面却还要演好这一场戏

lady lady one more try 再试着了解我的爱
发不出声音的感慨选择作朋友的无奈
lady lady one more try 提醒我何时该走开
只要你偶尔想起来我就住在那片海

那片海眼看就要让我愈来愈远回不来
从此你的不愉快那么遥远谁听你埋怨
再说一遍说一遍 ya...我在你身边给你一点点愉快就
会心甘情愿回到大海

lady lady one more try 再试着了解我的爱
发不出声音的感慨选择作朋友的无奈
lady lady one more try 提醒我何时该走开
只要你偶尔想起来我就住在那片海那片海
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love this song's lyrics. lol. why? i think only some of you understand. wanted to upload some overdue pictures, but blogger doesnt allow.

things are not getting any better. neither is my mood. i dont know how should i face it. 'if you judge people, you'll have no time to love them' i think i totally agree. but now, i dont even wanna love you anymore. so fucking hurting. do u understand!? anyway ur answers really diappoint me. but nvm, not like u care. and i regret thrashing out things with you now. seriously.

studying very hard. aiming for my desire marks.

<3

Thursday, August 6, 2009

this is the third time, i rmb specifically, that i cried so hard. first time when i took back my PSLE results. second time when SYF 2007 got bronze. and the third time, is today.

i cant believe it. such thing actually came out from you. yes, it's you. i seriously dont understand, how can u say that?! are u really that cold blooded? yea, i stayed in the hospital for more than 2 hours. so?! if u are so scare of that fucking virus, chase me out of the house! and did you realise, unknowingly, you actually already show that you are jealous, when out of everything you said, your first line was "not that i'm jealous of your ah ma" do you understand how pain is it? i know you are sick too. but how can you say that i was not even concern about you?! ask grandpa! didnt i ask about you every night when i come home!? forget it. i'm so disappointed in you.

forget it. let's end everything this way. i am so tired. i need to concentrate on my studies so much. i need to reach my aim.

ps. thank you joan for accompanying me to the hospital when you are sick. rest well cos i love you so. (:

<3

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

staying happy.

for myself
for my friends
for him...

<3