♥ the memories ♥

Monday, September 29, 2008

met janice today!!! woke up at 8+ 9... watch vid. bathe. went to dao kia's hse to get SHE song... i walk all the way in, get songs, den walk all the way out again. lol. sound dumb. his fren was there too. anyway, thank you dao kia for the songs. after that went to westmall to meet janice.like.. finally. lol. get to see her again... we walk walk walk. burger king to makan. too full. we walk up up up upppp. den down down down downnn ... hahas. she is enjoying life in ajc. (: jealous. super jealous. especially when she's in uniform, with a cca leader badge. sigh. okay, maybe not jealous.. just.. envy. lol. i went mad in the korean shop. janice didnt manage to find the box she wants. lol. i told her to get shoe box. but she doesnt want. hahas. she's so cute as usual. walked till 420. den say byebye. ): will miss her lots. came home. super tired. wanted to print timetable. but didnt manage to.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JOY CHUA!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SEAN LEE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NIU QI!

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"my friend,
if i could give you one thing,
i would wish for you the ability to see yourself as others see you.
then you would realize what a truly special person you are."
*bears drawn by joan*

i'm rotting on my own bed.. it's so late le. hahas. but i'm still very tired. zzz. i'm sick of life. i dont know what to do. there is no aim, no planned route. i'm like a lost kid, walking in the forest. watch hei tang qun xia zhuan, cos cant find hot shot. ): and he dont wanna help me find, so i not watching today le. "谢谢，还是对不起?" sigh. poor xiao yu.

我想一直牵着你的手，
到世界的另一个尽头。

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Saturday, September 27, 2008

once again, chan wan ting is slacking at far east plaza with daddy. but this time, we're at 77 esteller. i love the food here sia. they are so nice. but a bit ex. dad tried their fried fish set. wakao. their fried fish is so crispy and nice can. lol. i ate the choco cheese bread again. (: mum and grandma doing body massage. have to wait for them. the smart me actually brot my laptop. wahaha. shiok shiok.

now that noobie's birthday is over, the next one will be joan's!!! wahaha, she say she very co-operative de wor. we shall see how. lol.

monday- janice!!!
tuesday- co!

(: i'm happy happy happy. hahas....

shiwei! dont try to read the smaller words le! LOL.

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Thursday, September 25, 2008

(: slacking at long john silver now. far east plaza. with dad. lol. oo. i love their potato chip with cheese!! even dad is eating them. lol. super nice! before that we still ate noodles upstair!! ah! chan wan ting is getting fat!!!! jian fei xing dong no. 1: to eat even more! LOL. using dad's laptop. cos i lazy to bring my own's. anyway, mum and grandma are doing facial upstair. xiang shou ren sheng. grandma was nagging and nagging ang nagging in the car just now. sigh. that immature kid's fault. i'm so tired. i must be mad, no metter how early i slept the previous night, i'll always wake up at 9+ siao diao! that's like, wah! lol. so not chan wan ting can?! but nvm, slp till song, sch reopen jiu cannot slp le. pia like siao!

heard a nice nice song just now. lol. i forgotten the name tho. (:

if you want it this way...all you have to know is, i've accepted the fact. (:

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Wednesday, September 24, 2008

mon- rotted at home. (:

tue- slack at home... co in the evening. ((:

wed- HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, NG YEW CHOONG!
yip, it's yc's birthday. went to yc's hse ard... 1230. cooked lunch there. soup noodle. (: took bus to cine at ard... 320? played pool. (: fun. the guys. so pro, compared to us girls. lol. shiwei seriously make me laugh like mad. after that went to kobayashi to eat dinner. HMV to get albums. taxi home with joan.

i realised we have nothing much to talk. i dont know why. i feel very akward with u. i cant explain why. it's just, a feeling i suppose. but it's not that kinda feeling. some things can be explained. right? sigh. i dont know what to say. i dont know what to do. i dont know what i am thinking. i hope my 6th sense is accurate. (((: all i can do is smile and life goes on. right?

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Sunday, September 21, 2008

sat- stayed at home in the morning. till ard 1pm. went to get textbook from xuanyi and followed dad to his office. used his laptop while he started packing his room. till ard 340. fetched mum from her office and went to vivo for a walk and food! i was so freaking hungry. follow behind my mum(cos she is always the only one shopping). fetched grandma at ard 6pm and proceeded to dinner at pasir panjang. went to bukit timah plaza after that. wah, terrible experience. lol. went to ntuc after that, and the first thing we saw was the cars!! omg. and i fell in love with that. $49.90. lol. den i keep asking the adults. can? can? lol. and i said yes myself, putting it into the trolley. wahaha. bot this bot that. then went home. zz. my didi, take le immediately open it den got scolded by me. wth.

sun- woke up dont know how many times. in the end, got this headache. super pain. ate 2 panadol. but they dont work. so it ache till i almost cried. and it seriously sucks. pain for... 2 hour +, going 3. had a short slp b4 it finally went off. i tot i was going to die. =x really! it was damn scary. i sweat like mad. cold sweat some more. i wanted to ask my mum to just kill me. bathe and went out after feeling fine. lunched at burger king! whoosh! i super happy after eating the whooper burger i crave for everytime i see burgerking. hahas. went to grandma's hse after that. slack here and there. mahjong a bit. picnic at living room with gu gu and ah yi. lol. got my hot milo. sit at mahjong to yan jiu the adults play. finally home at 745 and dinnered. blogger suck. msn suck. i cant get online, i cant upload my car's photos. i am slpy and shall slp early tonight. (: korkor going back to camp tonight. see him for less than 24 hours a weeks. pathetic.

kay. that's all! (: bye!!

不懂我的你

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Saturday, September 20, 2008

had a good start of the day. ate a cup noodle for breaskfast. hahas. my caring korkor actually open the lil table for me when my maid came in with my cup noodle, passing it to me. (: thank you. although it's just opening the table. but, i needed that. hahas. hope can go out and meet xuanyi later. then can take my books also. no adults at home now. so sian. but it's quiet. stupid didi slp till 10 den wake up. like pig. so i suay. morning 8 jiu wake up. sigh. i want to sleep toooooo. i dont want to go to NPCO camp! i dont want! i hate camp! no no no no!!!! lol. i'm going real mad. sigh. cos i seriously hate camps. 3 days 2 nights some more. sucks to core. have to slp and bathe outside.

i did it! for one day! today shall be the second day. and tml the third. (: it's not fun tho. but i have to force myself to. =/

hahas, i miss u.

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Thursday, September 18, 2008

I WANT TO GO TO FRANCE!
I WANT TO GO TO TAIWAN!
I WANT TO GO TO ..... GO .... LOL. i dont know le. too many places. i remember i always wanted to go to the airport andc close me eyes, anyhow point to one of the country on the big big board, buy the ticket and fly off immediately. (: yes, i know, lol. i am thinking a lot. it's a dream. DREAM.

rot at home today. my eyes are pain. very pain. because everyday staring at laptop. sigh. but nowhere to go leh. lol. read book, dl games to play, listen to songs. nothing else. really. that's all i did. that's how bored i am. i'll still waiting for time to pass. got my textbook already. (: (i didnt say i'll study hor)

i cant stand it. lol. i really cant.

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Wednesday, September 17, 2008

lovable. (:

hahas. it's weird writing to nobody to read. but nvm.. let me rant. hahas

let's see. something happy, something sad today. went to evelyn's house early in the morning. elisse, nicolette, evelyn, joan and i. end up we got split into two groups. ): some more is nicolette and joan, den elisse, evelyn and i. sigh. some more nicolette, audrey, elisse, evelyn, joan and dao kia got into the same IS class. i got grace. (: she's mine again. haha!!! i love her!! <3>

i hope he understands that i still miss him.

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Tuesday, September 16, 2008

my eyes are freaking swollen. ):

i seriously dont know who i am typing this for. zzz.

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Sunday, September 14, 2008

DAO KIA, JOAN, SHI WEI, YEW CHOONG, LESLIE- A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU. <3

although we didnt do a lot of things, although we didnt say a lot of things, but, i love yesterday night. (: at least i get to see all of you again. especially the guys and lesbo.

bbq-ed. leslie went off earlier to watch soccer with his friends. dao kia came late. and all of them actually stayed till 11 and mama sent them home one by one. i didnt want to say byebye. i make myself sleepy in the car. because i cant bear to say bye bye. one by one, they went home............ lol. hope none of them have hangover this morning. hahas. i dont! (: weeee~~ shiwei went mad yesterday, laughing like nobody's business. lol. and her mum is.... argh. lol. she understands. my bro managed to make dao kia smile. (: he's sweet when he smile. yew choong also. (: so guys, smile more. and results will be out tml. dont be too worry, cos we studied hard together.remember? (: everything will be fine. really. and we'llbe studying even harder together next sems.

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Wednesday, September 10, 2008

i miss kim dear
i miss gu zheng practise
i miss lin lao shi
i miss chen lao shi
i miss all the gu zheng people
i miss those times we practise so hard for syf and performances
i miss the excitement we had before all performances
i miss everything

hahas. changed my blogskin. nice? monday, jiejie came to swim in the morning. (: sorry, i cant teach. lol. tuesday, went for co in the evening with kathy. wed, today, rotting at home again. hahas.

i was thinking this few days. reflecting. maybe i am thinking just too much. life can be so simple and nice. i shall let things remain this way. like what i said- facts are meant to be accepted and not changed. i want to day-dream, i want to fly high. i dont want to stay on the ground, i want freedom. i dont want to be looked down on, i want to achieve. i dont want to be treated as a failure, i'll prove to you that i can.

是我自作多情

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Saturday, September 6, 2008

i dont know wad to say,
i dont know wad to update.
i told shiwei, i gave up.
that's it.
everything is gone,
including that feeling, i hope.
because i seriously dont like it.
i hope you understand.

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Wednesday, September 3, 2008

i am speechless...

i had fun today. and i wont be going out anymore till 2 weeks later. (:
thank you.

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Tuesday, September 2, 2008

am i actually at fault?

i want the peace we used to have.

i want the freedom he is given.

i want the trust which belongs to me.

i want the laughters i used to hear.

i want the joy we used to share.

i want the time we used to spend.

i want the warmth i used to feel.

i want the past we used to have.

i want the concern we used to give.

if only, all the smiles and laughters i get aint from my friends, maybe i wouldn't be feeling that bad. the sense of lonlieness some very obviously whenever i step home, alone. so what if i have all the family members at home. it makes no different. life goes on, with me in my room, chatting with my friends, playing games continuously. i felt nothing, but empty. the pressure, pressing hard on me. it seems like i am just a burden, which no one wants to care. even him. yea, dump me if u all want, for all i care. if i cant survive alone outside, then let me die, if this is what you all want. no one is to be blame, because everyone is at fault. grandpa, grandma, dad, mum, bros and even i myself. maybe, you all dont realise what is going wrong. but by looking at the chaos at home, even stupid people know this family isn't really a family at all. family, is just a name for all of us. i had nothing much i can say, because i dont think i even have the right to open my mouth and speak for myself. till now, i am so tired, i dont even feel like speaking. yea, malign. i heck. i cant be bothered anymore. come with evidence, or dont blame me being atrocious. who knows, i might just grab a penknife and kill myself one day, without any of you noticing, making all of you feel guilty for life. i had enough.

i think i only need them, or maybe just him.

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