♥ the memories ♥

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

guy.
i realise, how not important i am in your life.
i seems to be invisible, unless and not recognised.
you sucks!

<3

Thursday, April 23, 2009

chan wan ting did something she always wanted to do today. with her dear darling joan, she bought a tub of smarties choco and vanilla ice cream, went to her grandma's condo's playground, sat down, and started eating. =D it was shiok, though her stomach was aching like mad. she wants to apologise to joan for worsening her cough. hope she get well soon.

ice-cream

after reaching home today, wan ting lay on the floor and started thinking. is she always too demanding? maybe she shouldnt be making decisions so often. joan seems to be 'following' most of the time. from here to there to everywhere. again, she wants to apologise, for being too demanding and selfish. she'll control herself and not say "i want..." again. she'll say "do u want ... " or "what do u want" to joan.

我不知道自己在想什么，
也不想知道。
如果那时常的想念是喜欢所引起的，
那么，我要证据。
可是，我应该怎么说服自己？
因为在深夜里自己想着答案，
不知觉地哭泣，很痛苦。

~~i dont know who is the him i am thinking about sometimes.~~

<3

Friday, April 17, 2009

woo hoo! i am so freaking happy and high today. wahaha. morning 8+ went back to ntss. commendation day with jy and sw. congrats to chui fann! went to spgg for pool after that. no no. shiwei and i kept losing to that guy.LOL. lunched and met joan and ard 120. rest a while and off we went to swim! lol. suana, the not working well steambath, swimming pool, hot pool, jacuzzi, cold pool. shiok. lol.

wt.joan.shiwei

darling and i

lesbo and i (she cant see =x)

act angry. =/

hot pool.jacuzzi.cold pool

after that bathe and went to toa payoh to meet grace for dinner! lol. k, told her some thingssss, hope she dont leak out. LOL. waited for her and den went to koufu to eat. after that we went to level 3 kiddy palace. she 顿时 become my super mama. LOL. mama this mama that. hahas. i love lots lots lots, and darling too! after that we train back. they shooo nice, accompany me alight at cck and took lrt to bpp. den they took one whole round and went back to cck i think. thank u!

us:

after that went to meet grandparents, mama and didi at bpp and waited for them to finish their dinner... walked ard for a while and home!! so so tired! hope joan darling, shi wei, jy(shiro), grace mama enjoyed their day with me. heheh.

oops. yes, this is me...

and lastly, presenting to u, MACHO LIM SHI WEI!

=D cold jokes made the day! lol.

ps. shiwei and joan, unglam photos are not here, kop from me if u want... (:

Thursday, April 16, 2009

able to do nothing is the worst thing that is done.

this blog is a quiet place where things are said. hidden from adults. maybe not many friends came, but still, i must type out what i want to say. because life at home is tiring. lost in reality isnt a very nice thing. reflecting in lonely nights are so not fun too. but what to do. lying alone on the bed. not in mood to chat on msn, to watch video, to talk on phone. staring at the ceiling, hoping to find something to guide me through. seems like korkor has found something to do. although he's just 2 years older. shouldnt i be doing something too? or at least, get some earning. i learnt not to rely on anyone, but i am still, relying on my parents, for money, for food, for the fees of my driving lessons.

finally finished all the lesson required for theory in bbdc. fte booked. it'll be ftt soon. (: hope nothing will go wrong. ntss for the next two days. i still hv so many things to do. so so many. but there is no more time. why are my time so restricted by the adults?! dad is in china, again. back on sat.

-currently addicted to Utada Hikaru's first love-

<3

Monday, April 13, 2009

should i am glad that u didnt realise how pissed off i was?!

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Sunday, April 12, 2009

finally home. tired. both mentally and physically. but, it was a nice trip. away from city area. peace. maybe this is what i need.... who knows, i might go there alone one day. tho there is a lot of caterpillar on the floor every morning and mosquitoes and flies flying around every day of the life. i like the bed, i like the bathroom, i like the outdoor, open pub, i like the seafood restaurant.

counting and more to go? i hope not.

人生有时就是那么的无奈。
生命又是那么的无助。
看开了就是那么不一样，
连发呆都会不知觉地笑了。(:

<3

Thursday, April 9, 2009

weeeee.. island creamery @ serene centre is nice. i like. but they only have 2 alcoholic flavour. better than nothing. =D had one alcoholic flavour, one teh tarik. 4.50 wahaha, cheap. quite cheap. den walked to awfully chocolate. a weird shop i should say. lol. empty. only chocolate cake and choco ice cream. with joan and jasmin.

a.l.o.n.e in my dreamland.

<3

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

there is a boy,
who wants to hide his presence,
who is protecting himself so hard,
it hurts to see him that way.

there is a boy,
in my heart,
but i cant tell,
as a friend, or as a crush.

there is a boy,
whom i think i am forcing too hard,
to talk to me,
to chat with me.

so here,
i tell myself to stop.
to let things go,
and let my imaginations vanish,
right in front of you, boy.

<3

Sunday, April 5, 2009

did u realise?
if u did, will u even bother to change the whole situation?

i am freaking tired of everything.

<3

Friday, April 3, 2009

chuifann, i dont know if you'll visit my blog. but, here is a paragraph for u. i might sound freaking naggy, but, HAHA! i still must say, study hard. u told me u'll regret even if u study hard, but i have to tell u, if u dont even try to study hard, u'll regret more. =D i really hope to see u soon. and about commendation day. hmmm. (: i am waiting for the details. sms/ call me whenever u need k? (: i miss u and love u lots!!

鬼.

joan darling, this is for u. lol. 1st thing 1st, i have NO boyfriend.lol. he is definately NOT my boyfriend. i know my conditions so. yea, canot anyhow say de. next year only left 2 of us in the same class le. i wish u all the best in studying. (: we must get at least 3.3 k? jia you! i love u lots!

darling.

<3

=D ice cream ice cream ice cream ice cream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wwwwwwoooooooooooooooo. i love alcoholic ice cream! =D

hahas. finally! went to eat ice cream ytd with joan darling, dao kia and chan lin. wahahaha, wee. thank you you people. =D woo hoo, 4 alcoholic ice cream, 2 non-alcoholic ice cream. lol. at.. i also dont know where. a lil lil ex. cos got alcohol is it? so. hmm, yea. hahas. after that went to collect dao kia's phone. all the way kana shoot. sigh, poor me. LOL. qi si leeeee. anyway, walked ard taka, old storage to find kinder joy and kinder surprise, end up couldnt find. went up and down to find place for dinner. had pasta for dinner, den the two guys wanna lim kopi. so went to starbucks. stayed till 9pm and went home. lol. happy happy happy.

just finish chatting with yong sing korkor, he said seventh heaven overcharge. hahas. was given another 2 place to eat. hehehehehehe. more ice cream!! thank u korkor. hahas, i sure go eat de. hehes. i am so addicted to ice cream now. hahas ice cream rock! (:

udders @ novena
island creamery @ serene centre

i am so gonna go soon! even during school days!

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