♥ the memories ♥

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

i tried. i did tried. but it wasn't as easy as i thought. why must it be you? out of all people, it's you... den can u teach me, how u managed all this. am i really ur friend? i used to ask myself a lot. can i be your friend? if this is jealousy, den sorry, i cant talk to you anymore

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Monday, July 27, 2009

brainless ppl spamming my blog, u better get lost to ur fucking corner and dont come back. if u wanna tag, use ur own freaking name.

THANK YOU GRACE FOR THE CAKE.

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Tuesday, July 21, 2009

two drops of tears slided down my face...

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Monday, July 20, 2009

something happened again. once again, i fell to the bottom of the deep well. it's tiring, i must admit, getting up and falling down once again. cos no one will know what i had gone through again and again. maybe it isn't a torture, but what to do?! am i suppose to accept it just like that? i dont want to u know, i really hate that. what am i suppose to do? how am i suppose to react? i'm like a stupid person, smiling at everything that comes to me. but who is there to pull me, to help me? i believe, there is still more to come. but i am definitely not sure, if i can hang on and survive through it all the way.

if only u are here ...

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Friday, July 17, 2009

how pathetic....

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Monday, July 13, 2009

ifihaveaboyfriendnowiwillbewithhimeverytimehe
needsmeiwillcookforhimwhenheishungryiwillgive
himatighthugwhenheiscoldiwillgivehimakisswhen
wesaygoodbyeiwilltidyandpackhisroomwhenitis
messyiwillcryforhimwhenheissadiwilllaughwith
himwhenheishappyiwillmakehimhappywithall
mystrengthiwilldoeverythinghewantsiwillnot
neglecthimcosofmyfriendsiwillbringhimgoodand
nicememorieswhichwilllastforeverididntknowhow
tobeagoodgirlfriendlasttimeirejectedoffersideclined
kindnessandcareseemslikeideservenothingnowiwill
learntobebetter.

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Sunday, July 12, 2009

i love this pic lots. taken on the way out in the car.

woman, u know how to tell me ur son is spending alot. den what about u?! swiping ur card like this everytime. how long do you think we can survive?!

10thjuly09-friday
went to sing karaoke with joan, dennis and chanlin. =D quite high. and i am happy. after that dinner with them and grace and dianzhang. love them all. hahas. for making me so happy. joan darling even buy disc biscuits for me. how loving. =D

11july09-saturday
mentoring. rica has forgotten me! dam sad.. love isabel and qinghui. qinghui, hurry come for mentoring. it's getting more and more fun. hahas. met joan at tiong with isabel for lunch. den mrt home with joan.

how i wish he waited for my return...

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Saturday, July 11, 2009

leave, get out of my life.

ihateyou!

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Sunday, July 5, 2009

A: i was wrong.. it lasted more than a month.. i'm sorry.

B: i'm sorry it didnt last... cos i know i cant.

C: it has been more than a year and a month, since you last spoke to me. am i suppose to say sorry too?

sigh. i dont know what i am and was thinking... be it last time or now. i'm still confused by everything which happened. i'm finding stupid reasons to excuse myself from the faults i did. but i know, i cant. thinking about those stuff will make my character change that very moment. i am never cheerful like before, never laughing as easily. i wont cry anymore, cos not like u'll see and pity me. it'll only be embarrassing. i see it, i want it. but i have no right to own it.. cos it'll be destroyed in my own hand, once again, after twice. i dont dare to take the risk on the third one. but i must not lie about me regretting. blaming myself and not u. cos u are not at fault at all. so many 'you', 'you' and 'you' appearing out of nowhere, seems like only i can understand. hey, can you tell, i'm talking about you...

~~he did not wait for my return~~

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am i gonna die or something? why am i feeling so weak and shag recently. no matter how long i slept, everytime i wake up, i'll be feeling so slpy. drinking made me sleepier.

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