♥ the memories ♥

Sunday, November 29, 2009

woman. we seriously have nothing more to say.

if you wanna play cold war with me like that,

i'll entertain you.

you have to attitude me

im ur only way out

im ur only anger venting machine

im not ur grand-daughter

what have i done to irritate you

what have i done for you to say that i am selfish

what can i do so that you'll at least praise me

i am feeling so fucking stress about tml

and you are adding to that fucking feeling which cant goes off

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THAT

Saturday, November 28, 2009

finally manage to finish the 2 RFA classworks today :D

met nicolette for dance performance in the evening. thank you nicolette for the sushi-s :D

was happy happy happy. other den those unhappy stuffs happening at home.

the broken pieces
the unforgetable past
the missing parts
the unforgivable action.

如果再次放开会很难
那不如紧握着不放手
让奇迹发生在这世界
让幸福充满你的心。

放心，历史不会再次重演。
我只希望你永远开心快乐。
放弃是我唯一能做的。

that two years plan i have in mind. should it remain, or should it be destroy. only you can give me the answer.

<3

Friday, November 27, 2009

i want to go back.
if i do, i wont get hurt.
but if i do, my frens get hurt.

i dont want to go back.
i dont wanna hurt my friends.
but i dont want to get hurt either.

i'll reach my hand out once more, gripping tight.
i'll trust my friends even more, hanging on.
but what and who can i promise?
i dont know.

<3

Thursday, November 26, 2009

i dont know what i want to blog.
but i feel like blogging.

i want to watch 2012!!!!

<3

Monday, November 23, 2009

my friends came and are trying to save me.. can i make it?

i'm sorry.
i'm grateful.
especially to darling.
because you are just to special to me..

can i still see that sweet smile of yours??

the swings we used to walk pass are gone.

<3

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

more and more, it covers over me.
once and again, it hits me so hard, i couldnt react in time.
if it ever falls again, it might be just the end.

<3

Sunday, November 15, 2009

fate made me choose this route.
fate made me ended up there.
fate made me faced him for that 4 hour plus.
fate made me feel so hurt even after looking at that common place.
fate made me feel so shit when he came and talked to me.
fate made me so quiet, i didnt speak out what i want to ask him.
fate made me lose him....

how am i suppose to believe in fate now.

<3

Thursday, November 12, 2009

i didnt know it can hurt so much.

where are you guys? doing fine? no sms, no call. i am totally in the wrong mood. cant study, cant wake up as usual. 2nd time i am waking up at 8am sharp. but i chose not to rush to sch. i didnt want to. i dont see the need to.i chose to hide in a place of my own. once and again, i persuade myself to walk out. but all i do was to return after a while. if i can change and adapt that easily, what is wrong with me? sitting in my room, staring at walls, holding back my tears, slamming hard on the wall. thank you so much for wad you gave me. wo yi jing shen shen de ti hui dao na zhong zi wei. trust me, i'll nv do it again. cos you are not worth it.

<3

Monday, November 9, 2009

DADDY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

may you stay happy and healthy always!

i love you always!

from your daughter,
Chan Wan Ting

<3

Friday, November 6, 2009

only i have temper?
only i have mood swing?
only i will throw temper?
only i will blame fault on people?
only i will be the one at fault?

okay.. i know. i am the one who irritates people. i am the one spoiling people's mood. i know i should, and i will, shut up. no jokes, no sound, that'll solve everything i suppose. be it in sch, or even at home. anyway, it wont be wanted.

sorry to piakable guy for making him hit his head on the door.
sorry to dennis for throwing temper at him.
sorry to joan if u ever find me irritating when i get pissed off and when i piss people off. (i know u got ur temper too)
sorry to whoever who find me.... irritating/fucked up.

i know there is no point saying sorry after things happen. but i still must say. because if i dont say, i'll regret for life for not apologising. it sounds so fake. it sounds so wrong. but wad can i do?

<3

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

as usual, driving never fails to make me happy. no matter how slpy i am. no matter how not happy i am. i'll always be smiling after driving. went back to sch after driving. saw hui ting, hui shan, daryl, markus, sherwin. met grace, elisse, dennis.

walked with grace.
many reasoning took place, we place our stands.
we were determine.
but there are things we have to accept.
rmb, the world dont revolve ard you only.

the piakable him vs the rollable him vs the mia him
the too-nice guy vs the too-random-to-be-understand guy vs the dont-even-have-a-chance-to-understand guy.
haha! cool? my frens have nicknames.. all my friends! LOL. :D

jealousy is love? you'll nv know how much i miss you.

<3

Monday, November 2, 2009

Happy belated birthday, Christine. (1 nov)

gal, admit la. old le. hahas. ur motorcycle model will appear soon. :D i promise.
------------------------------------------------------------------------

tell me, how long will our friendship last.
tell me, what can i do to you.
tell me, how should i tell you.
tell me, what's the logic behind all this.
tell me, what's gonna happen next.
because it simply hurt so much, i didnt want to react to it.

有一句话，再也都听不到。

<3