the people

J, that time, we were too young. i didnt even think about anything. but hearing that you got attached before, i was shocked. but happy for u for those memories. and breaking the news to me after graduation, i knew nothing will happy between us. and i could feel it, you were the first guy who made me know that i can be loved by someone.

J, you were shy, but you were honest. (: in fact, you were so so so commited. those interactions we had, was so real, and i know, i will be happy by just thinking about it. u aint sensetive when it comes to dates, but u were careful of your words, and u gave lots of assurance to me, for us.

S, i fought for it, or at least, i thought i did, for that few months. but i know, to you,it was so short that it isnt even consider one. ur letter is still lying in my drawer, i remember you told me throw it away, but no way. i was the mean one in those times, i know i was fickled minded. being afraid and uncomfortable was something always  happening to me i guess. not like it was your fault, you even took the initiative. and wow, wad a firm grip. but our face got so red. i do things i dont usually do,i got mixed up. you wanted to do things for me, but i didnt allow you to.

B, haha, i am so speechless about ur character. i love it so much, but i hate it so much too. is it that i dont understand you enough? i thought things might work out. ya, simply 'i thought'. but time has proved me wrong. maybe when we get older, hopefully i can get to hear from you about what happened. i always wanted to know the reason.. and what your heart told you that time.

D, ya, dumbass, all ur nicknames starts with D. although it wasnt planned beforehand. we quarrel, we dont talk, we joke so much that i got too sensetive and i got pissed. but things always recover well, though i always warned myself that things might not always turn out right again the next time round. we went through a lot (not always together though, because u always keep things to urself). but i am always glad that you are still there for me, till now.

S, sweet, hurtful, excitment, pain. it was in a mess, no one was to be blamed. your card, your letter, your emails, your handwriting. seems like those memeories are carved into my mind. i thought i can forget, i wanted to get over it all this while. almost two years has passed. but it is still clear in my mind.



all these times, i was too weak. there was no self-confidence, full of pride, too fickle minded, too weak.
it all voice down to a 'thank you' to all of you, giving me experience (willingly or unwillingly)
sorry if I brought you any trouble, any unhappiness. i didnt mean it.

with love,
Wan Ting

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