there are things you dont know.
there are things you no need to know.
there are things i want you to know.
yet those things are what you are not suppose to know.

there are things you wont want to know.
there are things you rather you dont know.
yet those are things you ought to know.

i hope to face you one day.
but i know i cant.
one of my wish, to know the truth,
which i dont wanna know.

i'll breakdown, i'll cry,
but i'm eager to know.

lol. recently i was thinking of this guy.
something impossible.
something ridiculous.
something nonsensical.
something irrational.

but what to do?!
not like i can control it.
there are people out there,
trying to help me, console me, stop me from thinking.

thanks. but it's not helping much.
cos the fault is on myself.
too much blame, too much guilty feeling,
too much self conciousness.

i cant lie to myself anymore, cos i know i still care.
i chose to look from the other way.
i let go, chasing no more for the answer that i want.

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