days and nights

since when did i started to like the time of being alone in the lib cafe using the computers quietly with just my songs surrounding me?

sunday (27.07.2010)
high fever..
up to 39.2 degree.
seriously sucks.
having the backache, cough, sorethroat, flu, shivering.
went doc, paid $70+
6 kinds of med + 2 days MC
nic came to do afa too.
so sorry, making you travel and doing most of the work.

monday (28.07.2010)
stuck at home
slept almost 3/4 of the whole 24 hours.
missed WISP and aerospace.
nothing much...

tuesday (29.07.2010)
drove didi to sch at 6+am and back
start preparing the documents for bcomm,
practiced with nic.
drove to sch.
came out with a freaking saddening face.
drove the car home,
only to hear my grandma's sacarstic tone.
proceeded to clementi with elisse and nic.
arcade-d a lil.
polyclinic to meet grace.
back to sch for AFA presentation
walked home with ben dan,
with milo and portugese eggtart. (:

wednesday (29.07.2010)
cried early in the morning upon reading the sms.
didnt expect such thing.
couldnt accept the fact that fast.
it took me one full day.
with medication and that news of yours,
the day started terribly.
didnt know the impact can be so so so big.
thank you darling and mingxuan for being there.
audit lecture from 9 to 11.
lunched at pizza hut.
MA lecture from 2 to 4.
THE EYE3 from 4+ to 6.
did some work till 635 and left to mum's workplace
ajisen ramen + nigawa sushi = dinner with mum and bro.
off we went to airport.
home-d at 10+ going 11.
eagerly went online,
only to feel ur 忽冷忽热 again.
which actually sucks to core.
phoned with joan till 2+ before slping

can i ask?
if you notice,
can you please drop me a hint?
it is getting very tiring.
because you cant even be bothered?
because you dont even feel anything for me?
or is it because you are just dam blind?!
fuck this feeling of mine, going for 1 years plus.
and i all i get was this...
but yea,
maybe this is the extent of respond i deserve from you huh?
i shall learn to accept facts and not being affected by them at the same time
since this is life.
i didnt do enough?
or am i just trying to hard that i am already doing it so obvious and disturbing your current life?
why is everyone encouraging me to take that step
and yet it's only you, showing me the opposite way?
is that the hint?
that i should give up?
cos all you did was to run away from it.
dont expect too much from a gal who is tired of giving without return already.
pretty obvious that you already feel it.
cos your attitude towards some stuff already change.
if it was the old you,
that reply wouldnt be the same.
and, it would be directly the opposite way.
because i know,
because i want.
that i took notice,
of even those minor changes you made.
maybe i shouldnt be too sensetive.
maybe you are just changing,
to suit the gal you like.
which is definately not me..

if tears can solve all problem, i wouldnt mind crying the whole night.
cos i think, i really love you..

<3

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